Tuesday, October 7, 2008

Why?

Seriously. I've been following this blog since I was posting on the Knot's Getting in Shape board, so for a while now. The blogger went through one miscarriage, then got pregnant again, only to find out that her son had multiple chromosomal anomalies that would result in a 99% chance that he would either die before or shortly after birth. She and her husband decided that terminating the pregnancy was not an option, and that she would carry their son as long as was medically possible. Throughout her pregnancy, she and her husband have held so tightly to their beliefs and the hope that God would heal their son and make him whole. But at the same time, they have firmly believed that whatever happens is God's will. I give them an immense amount of respect for staying so strong in their beliefs, because I don't think I could be that strong. Now, on with my rant...

Their little boy was born today, and was able to spend 16 minutes with his mommy and daddy before he passed away. WHY does that have to be God's will? WHY?! WTF? Why does God's will require people to go through the pain that these two people have gone through? From what I've read in the blog, they appear to be really nice, kind, genuinely good people. Why does something like this happen to them? It's.not.fucking.fair.

In case you can't tell, I am somewhat lapsed in my religious habits. I was raised Catholic, but have become a "Christmas and Easter" churchgoer at Jason's Methodist church since we got engaged and started living together. Maybe this is the difference between someone like me, who feels the need to question EVERYTHING, and someone who is strong in their beliefs and doesn't feel to need to question. I don't know. I do know that it seems like this couple's beliefs have gotten them through this ordeal, and I'm glad for them for that. Because I'd be mad as all fucking hell, and I imagine that holding tight to your beliefs is very likely much healthier.

But damnit, I still want to know why.

1 comment:

erinann said...

I'm with you. You couldn't have said it better. It's not fair and I just don't understand!